WHERE I AM IN LIFE NOW..

Life is amazingly strange. I can find my passion in life and still struggle. If I not careful, my passion can slip away from me. Once I discover my passion and cultivate it, I must do my best to never let it go. Now, I am 19 years old. In this age, there were a lot of things that I can do. I will story you as in a chronology order about my life. Begins with my dream that I want to be a doctor because my mother always imagine when I grow up I can help people who needs my services. I am really wants to be like my uncle. I ever see him treat patient carefully as well as he gives a good remedy to cure their disease. He also gives a high quality service that patient needs it as well as he ensures his entire patient are cured as he can do the best. That’s why I am always imagined want to be a successful doctor when I am grows up. That is my entire dream when I am in standard tree, but that is only my obsession in the future and my hopeful. However, thanks to God because give me a chance when I received my PMR’s result. I can continue my ambition trough in form four when I am at secondary school. I was entered in upper science class with my best result in PMR. It was an unforgettable moment that I really hard to forget until now. My entire ambition fully when I am in first day in my class. I can see my friends with their happiness. I am lucky because I can achieve my goals when I entered the class. Two month later, I felt so hard. I did not know where I am. At the first times, my ambition spoilt and totally changes after I got my first test result in chemistry’ subject. I got bad result and I know I disable go on for this subject. The subject makes me focus deeply because it contains so many formulae which are needed to remember one by one. I am always failed because I am so confuse to use the formulae. My tears drop off when I received the third result. I felt so dejected. Every night I think about this. I did not want my ambition spoilt again especially my parent hopes I can be a doctor in the next future. My parent knows about my result and they understand I disable go on for this subject. They did not blame me because they know my ability. Then I tell my parent the truth that I want to change the status. I would not continue for that class and I want to further my study in accounting class. That was my suggestion. Actually my parent disagrees about my permission, then they think that they could not force me to further in science stream class. My teacher also thinks the same like my parent. They think my ability and effort not enough in order to attain excellent result. I must grab all the opportunities that come to me after this. Then they allowed me to further in accounting class. I felt so moody when I entered the class. I am always dwelling on my weaknesses that I can not able to achieve my ambition since standard tree. I am really interested to become a doctor. I know that situation had changes my attitude in physically as well as mentally. I need to change it because I know my ability. My friends always give me a kind of hopeful that I can do the best in my life. They also give some advises and supported to further my study. Now, I strive hard to attain my ambitious in the future. I need to struggle and focus in what I am doing right now either it is hard or easy to achieve it. Every night, I pray to God to give me the right way. I am always doing revision and exercises with my friends. Sometimes in the evening, we had a group discussion with my teacher and did many passed questions. I need to scarify wisely to attain excellent result as well as I must challenge my friend to show them that I can do the best. I am so happy because I successfully handle all my problems. I am really thankful to all my friends and my teacher because they were help me a lot in studying as well as always give supported and encouraged in any situation. At the end, although my result is not like Nor Amalina, but I am very satisfied with my effort and my hardworking in doing the best as I can. Now, I further my study at Islamic Science University of Malaysia under Economic and Muamalat Faculty major in Corporate Administration and Relation. I determine to attain the best result as well as to get dean list major in my priority. I did not to burden my family that I did in past. I must change my strategy for my future. Hopefully my future dream will come true soon. Lastly, this is my word always bare in my mind until now because it seemed has a power to generate my emotion and spirit together in order to make my dream become reality.

If I were a bird

If I were a bird

I would be singing in the sky

and I would try to entertain all people

If I were a bird

I would be a beautiful bird

and I need to find many friend

If I were a bird

I would be a meaningful bird

and be valuable to all mankind

If I were a bird

I would see a peaceful world

and I want to be loyal and successful

If I were a bird

I would be a good and happy bird

because if I die,

I want freedom